sayang,i love u..
juz to tell u i really2 love u..
i dunno y...
but lately,i feel something wrong with me...
sayang..i hope we stay 4ever this way...
always loved u darling
:)

to my haters

Great day today!

What the pity me???
i went to pejabat zakat and was not allowed to enter that office just because i don't wear tudong..
OH GOSH!!!
its so annoying ok..
haha..
whatsoever...i have to sat at the busuk chair with the busuk environment while waiting my dad going upstairs...
suddenly...GOD love me :)
i met my sayang there!
who dunno nona rite??
haha...
i borrowed hers and going upstairs..
this is what we called friendship never ends!
:)
my saviour :)
haaha!!!
Na'ah...and now i'm in the office of my dad :)
just reading newspaper and downloading songs plus updating my lovely blog
:)
yesterday hangout with my mum...
sweet daughter rite? do jealous ok!!
haha...
i dun have the suck cable do upload some photo's of mine in celebrating XMAS,journey to Langkawi and my new clothes,,,
i'm so desperate to buy phone cable and ear phone.....
but...gosh,,i love my money....
haha...
people!do not think i'm a stingy ok!!

hi love!

hi love!
firzanah back
:)
when i was small,everyone was said,titanic is the best movie in the world,titanic the best and much more about titanic..i just follow what 'em said...but,since i was grow up,i watch titanic with full of focus...
love,and now i dare to swear to myself,i realy2 love the movie..
wondering how if i have someone special like jack :)
i learn much lesson from that movie...
1st,power of GOD,
2nd,power of love,
3rd,never give up,
4th,some times we cant too give priority to degree...i didn't said it cant but depends on the time..
5th,the responsible of the leader,
6th,money is not everything in life..
7th,watch yourself and u know...it a must if u really wanna know..
oh my gosh!!!!!
this movie really touch...
i dare to said,u can cry if u really feel the movie..
for the second movie that i watch and my tears down to my cheek..
i know it sound so HAHA but u have to watch it!
i wish that i could find someone special like jack dawson
:)
and it really killing me...





talk about result..
i'm satisfied with it..
not so dessapoin me but not so really good..thanx ALLAH...
PMR doesn't mean end of this world..
SPM waiting for me..
promise to myself have to really study hard...
thx 4 those who always support me..
congratulation to all my friend for whatever your result is
:)

kepade nur izzati shahruddin

ati,aq kat sini xtau nak ckp ape..tp aq nak ko befikir..
ko xtau ape tjadi..
aq pon xsalahkan ko..
ko fikir la..
mak bapak ialah mak bapak,,
knp kite yg kecik nak masok campo..
bpk ko nak putuskan ubungan silaturahim dgn family aq..
aq x rugi pape ati..
tp,,sebagai umat islam..
ko tanye la kwn2 ko sape2 or ustazah atau ustaz mane2,,ape hukumnye org yg memutuskan hubungan darah daging dan silaturrahim dlm islam?
dan ko jgak tergolong dlm org2 itu..
ko block aq kat myspace,blog..aq xrugi..
tp ko fker la..bukan smue org yg skrg di atas akan sentiase berade di atas...
aq sedar family sush...kami org tidak mampu..jd cukoplah sebanyak mane yg telah kami di hina..
ko xmarah ke klu org dtg uma ko,waktu nak buke puase,tgah azan,termaki2.terjerit2,dgn tetamu ade..dgn alasan bawak angah ina dtg uma..
alangkan arwah nenek pon ckap ape,,yg dah lepas tu lepas la..
knp sampai nak maki mak aq barua?
sedangkan bpk aq xpnah kcau mak ko,maki mak ko,ganggu mak ko..
klu bapak ko dah penah pesan jgn bagi angah ina dtg umah,knp tidak ko beritahu aq waktu ko nak bukak pintu..
ape pon alasan ko aq tetap akan hormat krane itu rumah ko..
tp,,keadaan lain..xde sape2 pon halang angah ina dan kak fyza utk jejak ke dlm rumah ko...
klu hati aq busuk atau berdendam dgn ko,aq xpanggil ko waktu nak mandikan arwah..
aq xpnah block ko kat mane2..msn,blog,myspace or pape..
tp ko?
klu btol ko igt pesan arwah nenek,ko xwat aq mcm ni ati..
smpai arini walaupon arwah nenek dah xde..walaupun aq jage die xlame,,tp kate2 dan pesananye aq masih igt ati..
nenek pesan pina ati baby jgn gdo2 klu nenek dah xde..same2 tlg ble susah sng..
tp xde la aq nak menyusahkan ko..
ko igt arwah nenek suke ke kite mcm ni?
ko igt tenang ke arwah nenek tgk keadaan kite skrg ni?
klu ko bg aq alasan ko bengang sbb bpk aq dtg uma ko mlm tu..
abis knp ko xnak tanye aq?
bpk aq dtg,then ape bpk ko ckap,ko ni xpaham bahase ke..
mcm tu ke seorg adik bercakap dgn abg die yg tue ati?
tolak bpk aq dlu,bpk aq wat bodo ag...
then cite kat sdare singapore yg ank2 abd din dtg hentam kuarge ko..
ati,xde org nak berpukul,berhentam,berlawan,,
tp knp smpai nak suroh bawak kua parang?knp sampai nak ckp,''klu nak berbunuh,kite mati same mlm ni''
arwah dlm kete..
die mesti dengar kate2 perbualan dan jeritan2 pade mlm itu..
sebelom polis dtg,aq pg pelok nenek..ternyate nenek masih bernafas,,
tp ati..sdeh sgt apebile seorg anak berkate..klu harini ko x anta mak, ko jgn anta smpai bile2..
sewaktu kami ingin angkat nenek,nenek tidak bernafas lg..mgkin nenek terkejot krane seseorg itu ingin agkat kerusi rode utk hentam bpk aq..
mungkin jgak arwah ingin memberhentikan pergaduhan pade mlm itu,,tetapi,dlm keadaan yg lemah ,tidak boleh bersuare,nenek tidak dpt wat ape2..
kami bawak kerte dgn keadaan yg amat laju,,klu nak ikotkan hati ingin langgar smue krete itu demi nyawe nenek..apebile smpai di hospital..kami ke emergency..doctor btanye adekah nenek ade sakit jantung..krane arwah meninggal dlm keadaan mengejut..
hati kami tidak busuk,kami cube call rumah ko utk maklumkan arwah nenek sdg nazak stelah 2kali membuat bantuan CPR..tapi tidak berjaye..kami ingin maklumkan pade kuarge ko..
tapi,,korg xnak agkt hp..krane terlalu marah dan ego..
mungkin korg ingt nenek hanye hypo..
sdeh nye seorg ibu yg sdg nazk..
yg mungkin mengharapkan anak2 nye berkumpol utk membace surah yasin utk die..
tp ke mane kah smue ank dan cucu2 yg bertahun2 menjage nenek....
ko dah cukop matang utk berfikir ini smue..
jikalau ko masih bkak page aq,,dan terbace ini..
aq cume ingin samapikan salam aq pade kuarge ko termasok chu dan yg lain2..
krane, stakat ini, aq masih anggap korg sebagai drah daging aq..
tp terpulang klu korg tidak...
aq bersyukur krane aq ialah org terakhir yg dpt bercakap dgn arwah sementare arwah nenek masih bernyawe..
niat kite sgt penting ati.. hati kite jgn busuk dan berdendam
aq bukanlah baik sgt..
keluarga aq mungkin tidak kaye dgn wang ringgit,tp kami tahu berbudi bahase..
dgn nada yg lembut skali lg aq ingin maklumkan..aq tidak pernah dendam dgn sape2...
aq akan teros update krane aq nak pg keje skrg ini..assalamualaikum..

people..i fall in love with the book of mary kate and ashley olsen...
feeling great.....
tomorrow the office closed..
n i maybe go somewhere...
tomorrow i have to wake up early!
planning to somewhere!
:)

hello to all!

HELLO!!!!
long time i haven't update my lovely blog..
haha..
i'm busy working..
but a bittersweet, i will work til 11december..
RICH AGAIN!
continued working at another place after the events end!
perhaps any company need a workers..
how lucky am i as i work here in shah alam!
juz sitting and call people..with the greatest coolest air-cond here!
everyone is adult except me!
i'm juz 15 to the nearest 16..!
i am so shocked when started to realised that i'm gonna sixteen next year!
hoping that i could happy n enjoy to celebrate my sweet sixteen :)
now..people go to shah alam central shopping mall to have lunch..
n i..just sitting in the office to take advantage to update my blog..
very tired of the road..
it so..Zzzzzzzzzz...
morning til the time to back home,the road will be busy like a MCB!!!!
5o'clock get inside the car, 7 pm i reach at home..
the suck road was stuck..
sometimes 2hours++......
and whatsoever,i juz love the salary for 1 day..
can u imagine,u came work at 10 a.m / 11.am,til 5p.m,
and juz make a phone call,sitting in the great office with a fresh air of air-cond,
and u get more than the people that are standing at the mall,
selling shoes, clothes, clip, or whatsoever only RM4.5/RM5 per hour..
actually, i enjoy working here,except of the reason of money,
i also lucky to have this experiance in my age..
and, i know there's are less of my friends working like my job..
i mean, only if you are me,than u know u actually learn many things..
OH MY GOSH,they come back,got to go n BRB..
daa~~~~~~~~

happy aid to all muslim!

today...wishing selamat hari raya aidil adha to all muslim yaww!!
today we ate nasi impit,rendang ayam n daging,sambal kacang n much more!
my mom cook's was really delicious..
i felt so great to have a mom that stronger like her..
mom! i love you ! :-)
in the evening i followed my sister to c her brother-in-law in tropicana hospital @ Damansara..
about 7 o'clock something,we go to surau and pray..
then,we went to ONE UTAMA...
buy clothes,pants n something for body care..
finally i get out from my house after 5days 4night didn't go anywhere..
i'm so happy!
i'm freedom ok!
haha..
n now i'm back to my paradise home..
continued with blogging..
my cousin already flight to Australia..
i miss her..
and sooner,my d other cousin will go to GERMANY in February 2010..
bye DD..
you going to stay there for 1year..
i'm gonna miss u so much..
as u known,u r my lovely cousin! i LOVE U..i'm gonna miss u much..
luckily MSN will keep us contact each other
:)
**kpd yg lain jgn terase,,saye syg anda juga..
and me..juz stay here waiting for my job...
i'm going to holiday sooner!
juz be patient to myself :)
i am very sure i will going to ***********....
:)
tq to all of u..
meet my buddies in 2010 yaww!!!

i am sooner slap someone

did u know how much the coupon for each?
RM70..
why are your son are so clever stretch the coupon sucker?
oh my fuck...
i'm gonna slap u u know..
u stretch 5 coupon..
did u know how much?
RM350 juz for the 5 suck coupon..
then how?
u not going to responsible for what your son did?
so who gonna responsible of this?
me?
u want me to slap u?
soon i will...
better go fuck your own self la...
so..there's nothing i could say..
maybe no need to say anything..
juz pay your own self..
i'm so..so..so wanna slap your son..
so k..nothing to say much more..
just pay..and we settle..
don't tell me u dun have money or so whatever..
u as a steawarder's surely rich than me okey..
i'm so hate when ppl lied to me..
so don't u dare to did it....
YOU ARE WARNED!!!!!!!!!!!!

people give me light!

we LOVE each other!
i was already okey and no problem with the guy!
and i'm so happy!
i am really very2 happy!
i hope,we wont fighting again and against..
well..don't find trouble till trouble troubles u!

wondering how if i can stand infront of him!

he so hot man!!!!!
omg..
my heart are so melted................
u don't like and so whatever?
u get lost..

my up coming hair!

hi there!
come back again with a greatest smile to all of my lovely friends and readers!
this few days,,
i keep updated my blog..
and i love blogging..
because,friendster,myspace nor facebook just a lame stuff sometimes..
i guess..
erm..
i'm waiting my hair longest!!!!
i wanna curl my hair like>>>>>


this so gorgeous lady!

i am so whatever i am...

i am so addicted to eyes make up!
i love eyeliner!
i like eye shading!!!
that's really great ladies!
i love to smile,laugh and so on!
u know y?
i'm enjoying my life..
even though i know sometime my life was very empty..but..
i love myself!

sadness

yes..sad!
sad?it is something a normal human emotion nor mood..
i'm so sad..
how to describe it?
i don't know how to describe it but i feel it..


To someone,
yea!i love u..
but,u seems like blind..
blind of my love..
and so whatever..
u said much bad about me..
u said that u love me,
but are u going to love me the day after tomorrow?
i don't think so..
with who am i live?
i don't know the real you..
yup,you're my bf but..
u r just the person that i never know..
u just with yourself..your friends,your stuff and so whatever yours if u gotta problem..
i am so nothing for u..
you just with your own world..
yep,,continued your life as usual..
as u like..

**last night**
u said that i like to forced u..
u tell me that u hate me..
u tell me that i'm so bad..
at last u tell me that u juz joking..
do u realy think its fun?
OMG,i exist,,it's not funny at all...
*juz a short memo for u*
- if u really don't need me,
please let me go..
i'm not so desperate with your love even though i love u..
i'm a ladies..
i got dignity..
i'm not that type of ladies that easy for u to hurt..
please..i hate to stay with u if u continued with your stupid acting..

sadness

what i write is my own idea okey!

this few days..i got crazy with all this stuff,,anyway,,i still buy thing's,,clothes,,and so whatever in uptown..instead of downtown...i have to change my style..its ok..soon.. i will..
i'm searching what style do suited me..
i'm not the past me..
i'm changing my style..
and so..i love jeniffer lopez,,anna sui, and polo perfume..
no pasar malam perfume!dangerous!no quality..
instead not good for skin..
i love my stuff....
i'm very addicted to those things...

morning readers!

hey people..what sup..
i am here again to write what i like..
it doesn't matter for me if u don't like what i wrote..
do i care bout u?
this is my way to talk..
hate me?u get lost..
readers that's ok and no problem with my post,
i love u!
i'm going interview this friday!
hoping i will be choose..
yaww!!!!
haha!
i heart avril lavigne,venessa hudgen,hilary duff n lindsay lohan!
i like them!
i love their style!
their style was very perfect!
this is what i think about em'...

a lonely doomy day!

hi ladies!!
i'm here to continue blogging against..
gloomy doomy today..
juz sitting at home,,
take care of my nephew and 4little cousin..
how lame was me..
i'm continued with this lame work again for tomorrow...
i'm asking for jobs at my nearest,,but,,waiting the answer from the employer..
this 5 n 6 dicember,i maybe will duty at sureheboh bukit jalil as i ask for job there..
i hope i will be choose..and i sure i will..
i trust myself..
richhhhhhh again!!!!thx GOD,alhamdulilah

i'm on my way to somewhere!

hey readers!
i love all of u!
i'm so fall in love with my own self..
readers,u know what,i started felt bored using friendster,myspace nor facebook..
this just a lame stuff okey!
holiday?sounds great but..i'm just sitting at home..
readers,only GOD know how lame was me in this month..
nothing i could do at home..
i wish to go somewhere..
place that less people..
i need some space..
can my dreams come true?
why did sometimes i don't have feel towards u?
why did u blind of my feeling?
sometimes i feel like...i don't know how to describe it..
readers..i'm so down...
readers..i want fresh air..
i'm done with my essay..
i'm always be myself..i guess..haaha

and finally!

hi readers!
finally my damn blog allowed me to post something today!
yell..i'm so happy!
yesterday i went to time squares with my sister n lovely nephew!
so happy!we played game at cosmo world!
i played some of the dangerous game there1
i was played alone while my sister take care of her son!
i had played something like spider n space control!
while i was playing the space control!there's only me n the only guy joined the game..
so..we had a conversation while waiting it started!
he's name was arif!
we were introduce our self!
quiet cool!hahaha!
he never shouted at all..
while i was shout like my jantung nak jatuh..hahah..
n he was juz laugh at me!
this let me felt embrassing ..
hahah..when the game is over..
he said to me..''kuatnye jerit''
hahahahaha...
i juz smiled followed by laugh at him!
then,he juz look n smile at me while my sister standing infront of me n asking me how the game ended..this make me melted!he was..urmm..awesome!

today so happy!

today woke up late!
haha!
joan scold me!birthday also can woke up late..
haha..
8.30 come school!
today celebrate birthday with friends!
last night 12a.m celebrate with family!
they bought for me cake n sang happy birthday for me!
well..i'm 15 now!
;-)
i got teddy,tabung,pen,pencil box,n more!
also get money from my father friend!
thanx to all!
even there are some of them is just wishing me,
i stillfelt so grateful!
coz u guys still remember me!btw my birthday too..
i am glad to have family+friends..
that are always supporting me from back!!
yes i know that very well!
thanx guys!
i luv all of u..
my days was colourful by all of u!
thanx!i appreciate all of u doing!
hope next year will be okey in everything
;-)

i hate the manipulate peolpe!

what a trashes he is?
who do he think he is?
don't try be chill nor ''macho''
RIDHUAN GILER BODOH!BENCI KAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
budget......begok.......
org paling itam dlm dunie........
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......................

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz

PMR over!!!!!!!!1
i'm hapy!
i'm so happy!
n i'm very2 happy!
well..how many A's?
we see!!
haha

to anan!y dunwant accept the negro?ok mar..
to meor!stop study!stop laughing!u crazy!
to ye bhei!you bitch!dun like me?so what!u crazy!
to chai mun fung!cork m.fucker!u r always the cutest!
to kae tao!next year try harder!dun said the 'f' words again n against!
to nazer!haha..i noe u like me XD!thank u!but i dun like u!u r always 'sangap'
to my boy-yat!go n get some rest..u r very hardworking!
to myself!dun maki people liao..what's wrong with my mouth!!!rrrr..

these up name>my best friend!especially anan,meo!!trusted friend..
y.b n c.m.f stop from being chicky..xian sek la ni men..
to kae tao n nazer..stop singing,,sounds like my shit..hahaha
to my boy-yat!always love n missing u!very much!

to all people..dun get angry!
i'm copying anan!english version!
wanna pursuade me dun teach me,
wanna teach me,u get lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw,
23rd october next week friday,bring present!my birthday!hakha!!!!

lot of things to tell..

well..the 1st thing is arwah nenek..
hampir 100hari nenek tinggal kan aq..
sdey..
aq igt sempat bersama nenek utk sambot ari raye..
tp..
aq ingt sempat sambot pmr bersame doa nenek..
tp..
aq igt aq boleh memanggil seeorang bername 'nenek'..
tp..
tu smue dah xde..
aq igt lg pesan nenek
''minum air masak setiap pagi..''
''baik2 dgn ati,baby,dan lain2,same2 tlg bile susah''
''blaja rajin2''
nenek sempat ckap..''klu nenek ade umo panjang,bwak pina g tempat jahit baju''
tp..apekandaye..
allah ag syg nenek..
smue yg berlaku ade hikmah..
stiap ari aq akan tfeker psal nenek..
muke nenek masih dlm ingatan aq..
aq igt senyuman nenek..
aq igt nenek mendodoi sakit..
aq igt nenek cium aq..
aq igt aq salin lampin nenek..
paling aq igt,,aq org terakhir yg sempat berckp dgn nenek dan memeluk die waktu dlm kete..
aq xpnah lupe pesan nenek..
semoge nenek lebih aman di alam sane..
minggu depan jumaat ari jadi aq..sabtu pulak nenek 100hari meninggal kan kami,,
nek,,pina rindu utk panggil sesorg bname 'nenek'

what i supposed to said

well..i never thought that i control u all this while..
u tell 1guy i'm juz like control u with who u wanna be friend..
well..u mean it..
so,there was nothing i could say..
that is what u think about me..
what u said to others..
i heard it by myself..
well..
i really don't know what am i supposed to say to u..
is it my fault?
maybe..this is over..or maybe not..
concentrate my PMR is more important than anything..i guess..
i need some space..

this one call friend?

is this what u said our friendship is important?
i'm sorry..
i dont think so...
don't u have brain to think?

puasa can die?
puasa cannot do anything?
puasa will crazy?
then i'm gonna tell u..
puasa is puasa..
not bout dies or whatever..
puasa make me feel very thankful to GOD..


u even dont invite me..
at least tell me bout the party..
but that is juz what i'm dreaming...
i'm not angry.
but i juz think our friendship is very weak..
maybe will over soon..
sorry to become rude..
but this is what u ask me for..

i'm thinking our friendship is juz like
''things go better with friendship.."
but i finally found it was wrong..

what do u think about friends?

friends?
million thousand of friend is there when u
>laugh
>smile
>happy and so on..


what happen when u need a help?
>everyone run away..
>everyone not free for you..
>everyone have their own way..
>everyone take it easy even though the things that happening is not easy as they said..

That is FRIEND

i heart you!

u are my heart.
i heart u..
u are my love,
and i love u..
u make me HOT,
u make me smile,
u make me sad,
u make me angry,
u make me happy,
u make me cool,
u make me cry,
u make me laugh,
u make me love u..

whatever is happening,
i know u love me..
n i do..
well,,every1 not perfect..n me too..
thx for this relationship we had it very nice..
every1 not perfect, n i admit it..
even though i cry,i ,i am sad,i angry with u sometimes..
but i still don't mind...
because i know that no love is fully perfect..
n i know u always be there for me..
n i know u always companion me..
n i know u very well..
as well as u know me..
thanx 4 the love syg!
i love u

seminar for sej

today,i went to Memorial Tunku Abdul Rahman to attend the history seminar..
it was fun..
but i felt very sleepy..
haha
there's about 5-6 people that i know there..
and they are my others school friends..
i am on my way to having lunch,,
suddenly heard a sounds..the girl shouted[pina]
n that time i was so blur..
i cant remember the girl that shouted my name,,
when i stand near to the girl,,
i REMEMBER!!that was tasha..
haahaa
she's so friendly..
i'm hoping that i could score 'A' for history..

i love our friendship damn fucking much..

we are friends forever..
we are not childish..
but we are we..
even though there's so many people uncomfortable with us..[i guess]
but we are still being friends..
not only friend,but friend 4ever
she's the one..
only her that i very2 comfortable with..
i cant imagine if one day i might losing a friend like her..
n i know it will be so paint..
we get angry each other yesterday..
but we are okey now..
i'm sorry miss JOAN..
the words i'm telling u yesterday is not same with what my heart is telling me.
i love our friendship damn fucking much..

i'm sorry for not update my profile..
trial coming next week n every1 bz..
n i do..

yea..yea i'm so childish as what u said..
as the whole school know that only J*** n M*** is my best friend n a very best friend that i never had b4..
{i guess evey1 know}
but we are like this now..
n i dont have any word to say..
i juz missing how was i last year..
did u realized that she just captivate u?
i'm sorry for using this cruel word to say the 'girl'
but this is my opinion..
if u dun like the way i am,,get out from my blog..

i know i shouldnt go to your class n bother u n [your best friend]
i had my own class..
i had foon yee..wen xian, esa n whoever to play with me..
i shouldnt go to your class right?
yep..i know..
i'm sory..
i dont need the whole school to be my friends..
i juz need a few friend whoever can understand me..
i dun really care the quantity of friends..
but i do very care the quality of friends..
i need true friends..
n i know u did..
i hate to walk infront of your class..
i hate to seeing u..
u make me wanna cry..
i love u as my best friend..
i miss u so much
my tears flow whenever i'm thinking of our friendship b4..
i miss u very much..
n i miss how was i last year..
maybe u will think i'm crazy..
but this is the real me..
i miss to have a best friend like u..
if i had a chance to tell the whole world my story,,
i will let the whole world know that i'm so hapy to know u..
i'm so happy to be your friend,,
but..i wont bother u n your friends anymore..
its ok..
i know that GOD is giving me a test..

uhsai...

well..yesterday 3july2009....
it was very meaningful to our cinderella actor..
well,,we done!!all the teachers and student are very proud with us..
we thought we didnt get support from other's..but we did it..
''stepmother'' that is(my character)
haha..
i did my best..
and they enjoy with my performance..(i realized that)
first of all,,we cant imagine that we get support from 95% from audience..
then,we mean it...
luv joan,meor,pu3...
ty guys!!

even though i laugh,i smile,i look at u..
it doesnt mean that i forgive u..
as long as u din ask apologize from me..
so i wont be able to forgive u..
for the moment,,i'm ok..
but i know who am i..
if u say sorry maybe i'll be able to forgive u..
but we will not like before..
juz throw the name of bestfriend inside the dustbin..
coz i'm not desprate to have a friend like u..
every1 not perfect..even me,,,
so that is the reason i'll forgive u...

long time not update

i'm sorry..
for long time didnt update..
i'm so happy now..
n i am realy hapy..
i'm free..
freedom..
i dont have boyfriend anymore..
i'm free n i am satiesfied with what i did..
i prefer to dont have any serious relationship..
enough if juz friend..

my life now.....

3R...
boring...
nobody accampony me...
i miss 2Q so much..
miss them lot...
nobody know what i feel..
nobody know what am i thinking..
nobody know what i want,
nobody know,nobody know,no body know........
I"M SO SAD

blum,blam,bum

the suck is over..
haha..
actually i mean 4 my exam...
boring...
they are all useless...
chitting...........
got brain..but don't use.......
the exam past already........
I AM FREE n I"M HAPPY!!!!!!!!
LIKE IT VERY MUCH>>>>>

blum,blam,bum

woiiiiiiiiiiiii

k la..kalau ko terbace,aq nak ko tau..
sbenanye aq rindu jgak kte kwn2 dulu..
tp ble aq teringat bende taik yg ko wat kat aq,aq mrah sgt..
aq tau aq ade wat salah dkat ko jgak..tp aq xtau ape la..
sampai ko cite burok psal aq kat smue org...
aq saba ade limit...
klu ko dah lebih limit namenye ko mmg cari pasal r dgn aq...
wat mase ni aq mmg tgah panas dgn ko ag...
at least ko minx maaf ngan aq..
bukan wat palat ngan aq..
tah la aixx..ko ngan ridhuan same je r..
2,2 mcm pxkxmxk

DO I look so WEIRD???

yesterday was monday..
it is 30march..
well..all student know i am a prefect...
mostly i wore baju kurung..
but then,,my captain and SOME commitee member ask me to wear shirt..
they ask me wether i'm agree..
then i said..
ok lah...
then,yesterday (monday),i wore like what my committe ask me to do so..
and i came very early..i think at 6.15 a.m...
juz loh zhi pei alone in class...
i ask zhi pei wether i am ok..
then he said,ok...
sudenly,fong ye came..
she staring at me,,
then i looked at her..she juz smile...
i said,,so hai,what r u staring at..
she laughed...
it ok then..
we talk foolishly..
when my duty time is reach,i go out from my class and go to maindoor...
everyone look at me like i am a new student..
i juz felt like wanna kick they ass...
haha...
i am so embressing...
i juz cant stop laughing......hahaha....
my mouth was so tired when eveyone ask me the reason i wore the shirt..
i feel like wanna used the microphone and tell every1 loudly,
TODAY IS MONDAY,I HAVE TO USE BLESSER,SO I WEAR SHIRT N TIE,...
this make me felt DAMN FUCKING EMBRESSING

j,ty,sy........hate all this..

firstly,,i was joined with them..
coz, i think they are ok...
but lately,,
i started to realise that i am nothing in that group..
i hate them so much..
chicky,bossy,bitchy.....
i waste my time there..
coz,before i was thinking that they will be my best friend..
but,that is juz what i wish..
in addition,if i could reverse to my past,,
i wont think u guys will be my friends.....
they are full of rubbish words from they mouth,,
n i'm juz alone there..
coz they got p*****...
I AM NOT JELOUS...BUT,,
I THINK I WAS SO STUPID TO JOINED THOSE chicky,bitchy GIRLS..

i hate you,i hate u,i hate u...

i hate u so much...............
u make me hoping...
chasing u like i am a dog..........
u r so stupid...
i'll never 4get this till my last breath..
your mouth is so powerful to make fun of me....
do u think it fun?
i'm gonna kick your ass n tell u THIS IS NOT FUN!!!!!!!!
i thought u believe me..
but..
it juz what i wish..
coz live in this stupid world...

i know what your damn friend are telling u..
but,they dont know me..
do they even know u..
u hide all the shit things that u guys do...
this is unfair for me if they juz listening to u but not me..
it juz a waste if i be there for u..
coz u already have u shit,damn,hell friends..........
forget abt me....

我的永 远好朋友

我 的 永 远 好 朋 友 是
可 爰 的 S A W J O A N . . . .
他 是 世 界 上 最 好 笑 的 人. . . .

我不需要你这样告诉别人关于我.和你

如 果 你 觉 得 你 自 己错 ,你 就 自 己 来 像 我 说一声 对 不 起..
不 需 要 到 出 去 说 我 这 个, 说 我 那 个 ..
我 不 需 要 你 这 种 又臭 又心 怀 不 善 的朋 友..
讨厌 我 就 算 了,,
为 什 么 还 要 kepoh 我 的 事..
每 天 说 我 错,,好象自 己 对 到 完...
我 可 以 告 诉 你,
你 可 以 死 远 远 去,,
可 以 的 话, 我 想 给 你 知 道,
我 非 常 的 后 悔 能 认 识 你 这 种人 ..

that day..

i remembered the day that we hangout...
i miss u so much..

the time when i want to move,
i felt so sorry to u..
i can feel the same way that u feel...
it make my tears wanna flow again..

the time when u hold me in your arms,
i know that is forever..
i juz got to let u know,
i never wanna let u go...
i'm gonna tell u that i love u in the best way that i can..

i start to realize,
u r the light that make my darkness disappear..
i need u...

u bluffing..i hate u but i miss u so...

i though i was stronger to live without your love..
but i realise that i was full of weakness...
is it true that my heart is realy love u?
life without your love juz make me feel the world is juz me ALONE..
i felt so lonely..
if i could meet u now,i'll let u know how much i love u with my big hug 4 u..
this feeling make me feel very dissapointed with u..
would u please use your sister phone to message me..
even though a call at public also yet enough..........
it enough for u to make me sad..
my tears is tired enough to flow...

♥♥♥♥- i f -♥♥♥♥

♥♥ if kisses were water,,,

♥♥ i'll give you the sea...

♥♥ if hug were leaves,,,

♥♥ i'll give u a tree...

♥♥ if love is a planet,,,

♥♥ i'll give you the gravity...

♥♥ if we are together 4ever,,,

♥♥ i'll try to make u feel gay all the time...

i'm not stupid,i'm not fool,i'm not u,i'm juz me....

it hard for me to say 'i'm sorry' but,if i could tell u, i'll let u know that i didn't mean it.. if i am so hard for u to care,if i am troubling u all the time.. i'll said that i'm sorry..n i'm realy sory...

♥♥i know that i'm not perfect..so do u?

♥♥i know that i'm stubborn..so do u?

♥♥i know that u care of me..SO I AM..!

♥♥i know there is many people said i'm stupid..blur..fool..

but.. there is 1 thing so important to you to know that,, i'm not stupid,i'm not fool,i'm not other's BUT.. i'm juz me..


no mater what they said..
i like the way i am
as long as u ♥ me,i'm ok n i'm all right,,
coz,,u are there 4 me..
thx 4 the love that have been given..

sometimes

sometimes...
i forget to ask 'wether are u ok'..
sometimes..
i even forget to say hi..
but then..
that doesn't mean i've 4gotten abt u..
and now..
if i could reverse my past and i would let u know...
that i realy care abt u..
n love u more than u love me..

i was thinking

i was thinking of..
>>some1 that i realy love
i was dreaming
>>when some1 is missing me
i am so angry..
>>when some1 fool around me
i hate student
>>that never coparateion when i'm on dute
>>and that is ny seniors
>>hate noraini so much
>>ppl hurt me
>>was think i'm blur..
>>yet,i'm not blur

pmr

study hard n being smart..
the first ppl that i wanna bet with
>>NORAINI<<

i need him>>>

quite long time didnt update profile....i need him so much.even though ihate u..but my heart beat....i cant lie myself...i need u so..

break up

i tell this guy that i wanna break uo..bkn sbb i've some1 new..tapi,,juz stop it..it enough..i am tired enough...i dun wan to have a life like this..i am so suffer..please let me go..i'm hoping........

PMR..HELL YEAH!!!!!!!

kk,,this year pmr..mampos right..but i try my best for this year..i try to study hard,study smart..arghh...fuck..nak rest......but..i doing all this,,juz 4 my parents...love u..

everyone like shit..

everyone like shit..smue menyusahkan idop aq..sometimes,i think,if ade bf,that will be better..tapi,,hell yeahhsame je..kdang2,wanna be single..tp x boleh,,i try to calm,i try to hate u..but i can't..coz my heart is always loving u..

hutang............shit!!haha

that day i bought new phone...so pinjam dwet rmai org la..especialy my dad.....arghhh............wont somebody wanna give me money..without pay back,,??

mum!!

if u could see how much i love,i bat..u get a hard attack..!
my mum said i was very lazy..pdahal,org luar smue bleh nmpak,act aq x benti2 wat kje,,,byk tanggungjawab yg aq kne pikul..juz bcoz i leave alone at home..i was realy lonely..i cried alone but nobody knows..thats the hell yeah...

Everytime aq kua with my mum,kte slalu fighting dlm krete..aq plak jwb2 ckap mak...but i dont mean to do that..aq juz nak nak bgtau,,the way she think is actually wrong..WRONG,WRONG AND WRONG!!!!!!!!plz be more positive mum.....
mum,if i could show u how much i love u....
i wont regret to spend my life with you..

my life was so hard

my life was so hard to be..ye la..baru aq tau..idop ni sgt x adil...knape perlu dibeza2 kan org??ok fine..!!hanye allah je la yg tau..even though that is my aunty n uncle...if u wrong that means,u are wrong...yeah!i hate this....dah byak kali aq tgk dorg..pleh kasih mcm sial..y i have tu suffer like this..k r..sbagai luahan isik ati,,aq bpk gle sdeh doh.."dorg" dpt bnde mcm best2,tp aq,my mun n my siz,juz get the thing like sepihan sisa sampah..enough la..aq dah mlas dgn diorg..i realy hate this..

this is a cute love story..

girl;am i pretty?
boy;no..
girl;do u want to live with me?
boy;no
girl;will u cry if i leave u?
boy;no..

the girl start to cry..
the boy pulled her close to him n said;;
u r not pretty,but pretiest,
i dont want to live with u,but i live for u..
if u leave me,i wont cry but i die..

so complicated

hey all...miss all of u so much...my life was realy complicated..sometimes feel like life was unfair..but i realised that god is giving me a test..i juz hope 1 thing..will be together with xxxx untill my last breath..luv him so much dude!!