where are my soul belongs to?

i wish my family was different..
I wish my friends was here..
I know not every that i wish will be infront of me..
I know i was just like a devil..
I know no one really care of me..
I know i am very rude..
I know i was different from all my family members..
I know i was juz a damn art class..
I know i am not belongs to where am i standing now..
I wish i could dissapear from those who know me,.