today so happy!

today woke up late!
haha!
joan scold me!birthday also can woke up late..
haha..
8.30 come school!
today celebrate birthday with friends!
last night 12a.m celebrate with family!
they bought for me cake n sang happy birthday for me!
well..i'm 15 now!
;-)
i got teddy,tabung,pen,pencil box,n more!
also get money from my father friend!
thanx to all!
even there are some of them is just wishing me,
i stillfelt so grateful!
coz u guys still remember me!btw my birthday too..
i am glad to have family+friends..
that are always supporting me from back!!
yes i know that very well!
thanx guys!
i luv all of u..
my days was colourful by all of u!
thanx!i appreciate all of u doing!
hope next year will be okey in everything
;-)

i hate the manipulate peolpe!

what a trashes he is?
who do he think he is?
don't try be chill nor ''macho''
RIDHUAN GILER BODOH!BENCI KAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
budget......begok.......
org paling itam dlm dunie........
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......................

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz

PMR over!!!!!!!!1
i'm hapy!
i'm so happy!
n i'm very2 happy!
well..how many A's?
we see!!
haha

to anan!y dunwant accept the negro?ok mar..
to meor!stop study!stop laughing!u crazy!
to ye bhei!you bitch!dun like me?so what!u crazy!
to chai mun fung!cork m.fucker!u r always the cutest!
to kae tao!next year try harder!dun said the 'f' words again n against!
to nazer!haha..i noe u like me XD!thank u!but i dun like u!u r always 'sangap'
to my boy-yat!go n get some rest..u r very hardworking!
to myself!dun maki people liao..what's wrong with my mouth!!!rrrr..

these up name>my best friend!especially anan,meo!!trusted friend..
y.b n c.m.f stop from being chicky..xian sek la ni men..
to kae tao n nazer..stop singing,,sounds like my shit..hahaha
to my boy-yat!always love n missing u!very much!

to all people..dun get angry!
i'm copying anan!english version!
wanna pursuade me dun teach me,
wanna teach me,u get lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw,
23rd october next week friday,bring present!my birthday!hakha!!!!

lot of things to tell..

well..the 1st thing is arwah nenek..
hampir 100hari nenek tinggal kan aq..
sdey..
aq igt sempat bersama nenek utk sambot ari raye..
tp..
aq ingt sempat sambot pmr bersame doa nenek..
tp..
aq igt aq boleh memanggil seeorang bername 'nenek'..
tp..
tu smue dah xde..
aq igt lg pesan nenek
''minum air masak setiap pagi..''
''baik2 dgn ati,baby,dan lain2,same2 tlg bile susah''
''blaja rajin2''
nenek sempat ckap..''klu nenek ade umo panjang,bwak pina g tempat jahit baju''
tp..apekandaye..
allah ag syg nenek..
smue yg berlaku ade hikmah..
stiap ari aq akan tfeker psal nenek..
muke nenek masih dlm ingatan aq..
aq igt senyuman nenek..
aq igt nenek mendodoi sakit..
aq igt nenek cium aq..
aq igt aq salin lampin nenek..
paling aq igt,,aq org terakhir yg sempat berckp dgn nenek dan memeluk die waktu dlm kete..
aq xpnah lupe pesan nenek..
semoge nenek lebih aman di alam sane..
minggu depan jumaat ari jadi aq..sabtu pulak nenek 100hari meninggal kan kami,,
nek,,pina rindu utk panggil sesorg bname 'nenek'

what i supposed to said

well..i never thought that i control u all this while..
u tell 1guy i'm juz like control u with who u wanna be friend..
well..u mean it..
so,there was nothing i could say..
that is what u think about me..
what u said to others..
i heard it by myself..
well..
i really don't know what am i supposed to say to u..
is it my fault?
maybe..this is over..or maybe not..
concentrate my PMR is more important than anything..i guess..
i need some space..

this one call friend?

is this what u said our friendship is important?
i'm sorry..
i dont think so...
don't u have brain to think?

puasa can die?
puasa cannot do anything?
puasa will crazy?
then i'm gonna tell u..
puasa is puasa..
not bout dies or whatever..
puasa make me feel very thankful to GOD..


u even dont invite me..
at least tell me bout the party..
but that is juz what i'm dreaming...
i'm not angry.
but i juz think our friendship is very weak..
maybe will over soon..
sorry to become rude..
but this is what u ask me for..

i'm thinking our friendship is juz like
''things go better with friendship.."
but i finally found it was wrong..

what do u think about friends?

friends?
million thousand of friend is there when u
>laugh
>smile
>happy and so on..


what happen when u need a help?
>everyone run away..
>everyone not free for you..
>everyone have their own way..
>everyone take it easy even though the things that happening is not easy as they said..

That is FRIEND

i heart you!

u are my heart.
i heart u..
u are my love,
and i love u..
u make me HOT,
u make me smile,
u make me sad,
u make me angry,
u make me happy,
u make me cool,
u make me cry,
u make me laugh,
u make me love u..

whatever is happening,
i know u love me..
n i do..
well,,every1 not perfect..n me too..
thx for this relationship we had it very nice..
every1 not perfect, n i admit it..
even though i cry,i ,i am sad,i angry with u sometimes..
but i still don't mind...
because i know that no love is fully perfect..
n i know u always be there for me..
n i know u always companion me..
n i know u very well..
as well as u know me..
thanx 4 the love syg!
i love u

seminar for sej

today,i went to Memorial Tunku Abdul Rahman to attend the history seminar..
it was fun..
but i felt very sleepy..
haha
there's about 5-6 people that i know there..
and they are my others school friends..
i am on my way to having lunch,,
suddenly heard a sounds..the girl shouted[pina]
n that time i was so blur..
i cant remember the girl that shouted my name,,
when i stand near to the girl,,
i REMEMBER!!that was tasha..
haahaa
she's so friendly..
i'm hoping that i could score 'A' for history..

i love our friendship damn fucking much..

we are friends forever..
we are not childish..
but we are we..
even though there's so many people uncomfortable with us..[i guess]
but we are still being friends..
not only friend,but friend 4ever
she's the one..
only her that i very2 comfortable with..
i cant imagine if one day i might losing a friend like her..
n i know it will be so paint..
we get angry each other yesterday..
but we are okey now..
i'm sorry miss JOAN..
the words i'm telling u yesterday is not same with what my heart is telling me.
i love our friendship damn fucking much..

i'm sorry for not update my profile..
trial coming next week n every1 bz..
n i do..

yea..yea i'm so childish as what u said..
as the whole school know that only J*** n M*** is my best friend n a very best friend that i never had b4..
{i guess evey1 know}
but we are like this now..
n i dont have any word to say..
i juz missing how was i last year..
did u realized that she just captivate u?
i'm sorry for using this cruel word to say the 'girl'
but this is my opinion..
if u dun like the way i am,,get out from my blog..

i know i shouldnt go to your class n bother u n [your best friend]
i had my own class..
i had foon yee..wen xian, esa n whoever to play with me..
i shouldnt go to your class right?
yep..i know..
i'm sory..
i dont need the whole school to be my friends..
i juz need a few friend whoever can understand me..
i dun really care the quantity of friends..
but i do very care the quality of friends..
i need true friends..
n i know u did..
i hate to walk infront of your class..
i hate to seeing u..
u make me wanna cry..
i love u as my best friend..
i miss u so much
my tears flow whenever i'm thinking of our friendship b4..
i miss u very much..
n i miss how was i last year..
maybe u will think i'm crazy..
but this is the real me..
i miss to have a best friend like u..
if i had a chance to tell the whole world my story,,
i will let the whole world know that i'm so hapy to know u..
i'm so happy to be your friend,,
but..i wont bother u n your friends anymore..
its ok..
i know that GOD is giving me a test..

uhsai...

well..yesterday 3july2009....
it was very meaningful to our cinderella actor..
well,,we done!!all the teachers and student are very proud with us..
we thought we didnt get support from other's..but we did it..
''stepmother'' that is(my character)
haha..
i did my best..
and they enjoy with my performance..(i realized that)
first of all,,we cant imagine that we get support from 95% from audience..
then,we mean it...
luv joan,meor,pu3...
ty guys!!

even though i laugh,i smile,i look at u..
it doesnt mean that i forgive u..
as long as u din ask apologize from me..
so i wont be able to forgive u..
for the moment,,i'm ok..
but i know who am i..
if u say sorry maybe i'll be able to forgive u..
but we will not like before..
juz throw the name of bestfriend inside the dustbin..
coz i'm not desprate to have a friend like u..
every1 not perfect..even me,,,
so that is the reason i'll forgive u...

long time not update

i'm sorry..
for long time didnt update..
i'm so happy now..
n i am realy hapy..
i'm free..
freedom..
i dont have boyfriend anymore..
i'm free n i am satiesfied with what i did..
i prefer to dont have any serious relationship..
enough if juz friend..

my life now.....

3R...
boring...
nobody accampony me...
i miss 2Q so much..
miss them lot...
nobody know what i feel..
nobody know what am i thinking..
nobody know what i want,
nobody know,nobody know,no body know........
I"M SO SAD

blum,blam,bum

the suck is over..
haha..
actually i mean 4 my exam...
boring...
they are all useless...
chitting...........
got brain..but don't use.......
the exam past already........
I AM FREE n I"M HAPPY!!!!!!!!
LIKE IT VERY MUCH>>>>>

blum,blam,bum

woiiiiiiiiiiiii

k la..kalau ko terbace,aq nak ko tau..
sbenanye aq rindu jgak kte kwn2 dulu..
tp ble aq teringat bende taik yg ko wat kat aq,aq mrah sgt..
aq tau aq ade wat salah dkat ko jgak..tp aq xtau ape la..
sampai ko cite burok psal aq kat smue org...
aq saba ade limit...
klu ko dah lebih limit namenye ko mmg cari pasal r dgn aq...
wat mase ni aq mmg tgah panas dgn ko ag...
at least ko minx maaf ngan aq..
bukan wat palat ngan aq..
tah la aixx..ko ngan ridhuan same je r..
2,2 mcm pxkxmxk

DO I look so WEIRD???

yesterday was monday..
it is 30march..
well..all student know i am a prefect...
mostly i wore baju kurung..
but then,,my captain and SOME commitee member ask me to wear shirt..
they ask me wether i'm agree..
then i said..
ok lah...
then,yesterday (monday),i wore like what my committe ask me to do so..
and i came very early..i think at 6.15 a.m...
juz loh zhi pei alone in class...
i ask zhi pei wether i am ok..
then he said,ok...
sudenly,fong ye came..
she staring at me,,
then i looked at her..she juz smile...
i said,,so hai,what r u staring at..
she laughed...
it ok then..
we talk foolishly..
when my duty time is reach,i go out from my class and go to maindoor...
everyone look at me like i am a new student..
i juz felt like wanna kick they ass...
haha...
i am so embressing...
i juz cant stop laughing......hahaha....
my mouth was so tired when eveyone ask me the reason i wore the shirt..
i feel like wanna used the microphone and tell every1 loudly,
TODAY IS MONDAY,I HAVE TO USE BLESSER,SO I WEAR SHIRT N TIE,...
this make me felt DAMN FUCKING EMBRESSING

j,ty,sy........hate all this..

firstly,,i was joined with them..
coz, i think they are ok...
but lately,,
i started to realise that i am nothing in that group..
i hate them so much..
chicky,bossy,bitchy.....
i waste my time there..
coz,before i was thinking that they will be my best friend..
but,that is juz what i wish..
in addition,if i could reverse to my past,,
i wont think u guys will be my friends.....
they are full of rubbish words from they mouth,,
n i'm juz alone there..
coz they got p*****...
I AM NOT JELOUS...BUT,,
I THINK I WAS SO STUPID TO JOINED THOSE chicky,bitchy GIRLS..