DO I look so WEIRD???

yesterday was monday..
it is 30march..
well..all student know i am a prefect...
mostly i wore baju kurung..
but then,,my captain and SOME commitee member ask me to wear shirt..
they ask me wether i'm agree..
then i said..
ok lah...
then,yesterday (monday),i wore like what my committe ask me to do so..
and i came very early..i think at 6.15 a.m...
juz loh zhi pei alone in class...
i ask zhi pei wether i am ok..
then he said,ok...
sudenly,fong ye came..
she staring at me,,
then i looked at her..she juz smile...
i said,,so hai,what r u staring at..
she laughed...
it ok then..
we talk foolishly..
when my duty time is reach,i go out from my class and go to maindoor...
everyone look at me like i am a new student..
i juz felt like wanna kick they ass...
haha...
i am so embressing...
i juz cant stop laughing......hahaha....
my mouth was so tired when eveyone ask me the reason i wore the shirt..
i feel like wanna used the microphone and tell every1 loudly,
TODAY IS MONDAY,I HAVE TO USE BLESSER,SO I WEAR SHIRT N TIE,...
this make me felt DAMN FUCKING EMBRESSING

j,ty,sy........hate all this..

firstly,,i was joined with them..
coz, i think they are ok...
but lately,,
i started to realise that i am nothing in that group..
i hate them so much..
chicky,bossy,bitchy.....
i waste my time there..
coz,before i was thinking that they will be my best friend..
but,that is juz what i wish..
in addition,if i could reverse to my past,,
i wont think u guys will be my friends.....
they are full of rubbish words from they mouth,,
n i'm juz alone there..
coz they got p*****...
I AM NOT JELOUS...BUT,,
I THINK I WAS SO STUPID TO JOINED THOSE chicky,bitchy GIRLS..

i hate you,i hate u,i hate u...

i hate u so much...............
u make me hoping...
chasing u like i am a dog..........
u r so stupid...
i'll never 4get this till my last breath..
your mouth is so powerful to make fun of me....
do u think it fun?
i'm gonna kick your ass n tell u THIS IS NOT FUN!!!!!!!!
i thought u believe me..
but..
it juz what i wish..
coz live in this stupid world...

i know what your damn friend are telling u..
but,they dont know me..
do they even know u..
u hide all the shit things that u guys do...
this is unfair for me if they juz listening to u but not me..
it juz a waste if i be there for u..
coz u already have u shit,damn,hell friends..........
forget abt me....

我的永 远好朋友

我 的 永 远 好 朋 友 是
可 爰 的 S A W J O A N . . . .
他 是 世 界 上 最 好 笑 的 人. . . .

我不需要你这样告诉别人关于我.和你

如 果 你 觉 得 你 自 己错 ,你 就 自 己 来 像 我 说一声 对 不 起..
不 需 要 到 出 去 说 我 这 个, 说 我 那 个 ..
我 不 需 要 你 这 种 又臭 又心 怀 不 善 的朋 友..
讨厌 我 就 算 了,,
为 什 么 还 要 kepoh 我 的 事..
每 天 说 我 错,,好象自 己 对 到 完...
我 可 以 告 诉 你,
你 可 以 死 远 远 去,,
可 以 的 话, 我 想 给 你 知 道,
我 非 常 的 后 悔 能 认 识 你 这 种人 ..

that day..

i remembered the day that we hangout...
i miss u so much..

the time when i want to move,
i felt so sorry to u..
i can feel the same way that u feel...
it make my tears wanna flow again..

the time when u hold me in your arms,
i know that is forever..
i juz got to let u know,
i never wanna let u go...
i'm gonna tell u that i love u in the best way that i can..

i start to realize,
u r the light that make my darkness disappear..
i need u...

u bluffing..i hate u but i miss u so...

i though i was stronger to live without your love..
but i realise that i was full of weakness...
is it true that my heart is realy love u?
life without your love juz make me feel the world is juz me ALONE..
i felt so lonely..
if i could meet u now,i'll let u know how much i love u with my big hug 4 u..
this feeling make me feel very dissapointed with u..
would u please use your sister phone to message me..
even though a call at public also yet enough..........
it enough for u to make me sad..
my tears is tired enough to flow...

♥♥♥♥- i f -♥♥♥♥

♥♥ if kisses were water,,,

♥♥ i'll give you the sea...

♥♥ if hug were leaves,,,

♥♥ i'll give u a tree...

♥♥ if love is a planet,,,

♥♥ i'll give you the gravity...

♥♥ if we are together 4ever,,,

♥♥ i'll try to make u feel gay all the time...

i'm not stupid,i'm not fool,i'm not u,i'm juz me....

it hard for me to say 'i'm sorry' but,if i could tell u, i'll let u know that i didn't mean it.. if i am so hard for u to care,if i am troubling u all the time.. i'll said that i'm sorry..n i'm realy sory...

♥♥i know that i'm not perfect..so do u?

♥♥i know that i'm stubborn..so do u?

♥♥i know that u care of me..SO I AM..!

♥♥i know there is many people said i'm stupid..blur..fool..

but.. there is 1 thing so important to you to know that,, i'm not stupid,i'm not fool,i'm not other's BUT.. i'm juz me..


no mater what they said..
i like the way i am
as long as u ♥ me,i'm ok n i'm all right,,
coz,,u are there 4 me..
thx 4 the love that have been given..

sometimes

sometimes...
i forget to ask 'wether are u ok'..
sometimes..
i even forget to say hi..
but then..
that doesn't mean i've 4gotten abt u..
and now..
if i could reverse my past and i would let u know...
that i realy care abt u..
n love u more than u love me..